Experience.....

Since from last yr 21th feb, my ex broke up with me due to 3rd party,who is the 3rd party?yes,his ex..unacceptable,oh my god,its nt goin to happen,he treat me so well within this 4 yrs v been together...im feel like im princess during 2gether...no matter how much i bag him,but he ed change face (cruel) to me...he told me "if i bac to ur side,only my body with u,but nt my soul"...I really fed up..once a while think wan to end my life....but no finally...
During this period, i was really suffering,cry n cry, "xing shi zhou rou"...u noe wat is the feeling,god n me onli noe ...
After 2 mths,i went holiday with my collegues,n with his frens too, the day v travelling im really 'stim'...keep thinking my ex n my ex....no feeling, no thinking....suddenlly one of my collegue's fren treat me very well,keep take k me all the while....n ask me to allow him to hold my hand as reason I will lost...then i say ok ...finally v 2gether...
Ya,1st few mths when started,everthing seem very good...i start 'put down 'my ex..i taught im d lucky gal in d world,god let me find the better 1 after i get hurt by someone ...n im very regret coz i never treat my ex as good as i can las time...so i promise to myself, this time i really must cherish this guy....n i think if i treat ppl good, ppl sure will treat me d same way....i tolerate with him in everything,try to change my behavior n hot tempere , n try to put more effort on how to take k him, owez take him at 1st place, ...i will ask his opinion b4 doin sumthing,coz i k his feeling, i try to treat him as good as i can...Y??coz i scare ppl dumping me for another time...
At 1st,vr really hapi each other(my opinion). ard after 5 mths, he started to change...sumtimes cool,sumtimes sayang me..nvm..i tolerate with anything with him just bcoz i love him very much...no ppl is perfect to another person, everytime no matter who make wrong, im d 1 who start to call...is ok,fine...as i love him very much,i wan to treat him as good as i can..prepare b'fast to him,buy b'cuit for snack while working...lot n lot...n i found tat our 'sex' bcum less n less,fm 2 times a week,1 time a week, 1 time in 2 weeks, 1 time in 1 mth...finally when i ask,v onli do....Im not stupid gal,i ask whether u dun like me....he said i think too much...ok,so i listen to him coz i bliv him...n he giv me d reason as he very tired,sumtimes not convenience...i accepted...
Ya..valentine cuming,v go celebrate at genting...v r very happy during tat 2 days...he really very sayang me....i think he very luv me...im very 'xin fu'....
But after bac fm genting, he started to change, whenever he came to my hs,owez tell me he very tired, sound like wan to bac home earlier..so i ask him to bac hm earlier to rest...but following 4 days,he oso tell me tat he very tired...n very quite when facing me...i start feeling sumthing,sumthing will happen...ya...i noe tat...n i expect tat....
Its true,im rite, he msg me in the 5th day,21th feb (another yr),same day with las yr, in his msg 'seriously i wan to tell u for long time,can v b fren bac,im very sori'..when i read the msg,my heart beated 'pik pok pik pok'...both my pump feel very cool...i call him after receive d msg...'ur phone hav been forwarded to the automatic system'...huh...he off d phone in order to run away fm me..i drive to his hs,i saw him drive car out fm his hs,n drive very fast..i follow his bac....act i just 12 noe the reason,i nvr expect anythin...just 12 to noe the reason...finally he stop d car...n i ask him y...he told me act his parents dun like me when starting till now,but he nvr told me...n he really listen to his parents,dun wan to argue his parents opinion...besides,he can try all d way to treat his ex very well...but cant to me....wat is my answer???i just tell him' u should tell me earlier n ok'....then he said he so sori to me n he go out fm my car....ya....end the relationship in just 5 min....hahaha....
God really play me alot......they nvr wan me to live hapily....they like to hurt me again n again...
My heart really die this time....who else i can beliv n expected more fm him....no...no more....this is d las las time....single life...welcome to my life....