Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
婚变的理由是外遇，他的外遇。然而，早在他有外遇之前，和他相处，早已成为一种折磨。两人相对无言，她不断的怀疑，当初和他结婚，根本只是因为那时她正好失恋。
她不是很爱他，甚至从没爱过他。只是觉得他不讨厌。
她只是没有理由和没有决心离开而已。
正愁没有理由离开时，有人愿意跟他在一起，她觉得松了口气。
虽然不爱，但是那种不甘心的感觉，只是正常人会有的反应。只因先犯错的人不是自己。
无辜者要原谅另一半的犯错，都很困难，不管爱或不爱。
要忍耐『你为了别人不想再爱我』的感觉，对任何人而言都很难，虽然妳不爱他，可是很难忍耐，有别人比妳可爱。
但是，如果不忘记这种不甘心的感觉，只想让他不好过，那么，一个人一直走在最灰暗的心灵路径上，只会阻挡自己看到阳光。
就承认自己是个弃妇又何妨？一个本来已经不爱的人抛弃自己又有何伤？不甘愿的只是面子问题而已。
她不是很爱他，甚至从没爱过他。只是觉得他不讨厌。
她只是没有理由和没有决心离开而已。
正愁没有理由离开时，有人愿意跟他在一起，她觉得松了口气。
虽然不爱，但是那种不甘心的感觉，只是正常人会有的反应。只因先犯错的人不是自己。
无辜者要原谅另一半的犯错，都很困难，不管爱或不爱。
要忍耐『你为了别人不想再爱我』的感觉，对任何人而言都很难，虽然妳不爱他，可是很难忍耐，有别人比妳可爱。
但是，如果不忘记这种不甘心的感觉，只想让他不好过，那么，一个人一直走在最灰暗的心灵路径上，只会阻挡自己看到阳光。
就承认自己是个弃妇又何妨？一个本来已经不爱的人抛弃自己又有何伤？不甘愿的只是面子问题而已。
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
“失恋与串癌症一样，当事人知道后，会有四个步骤地反应。。首先，是痛哭，第二，是愤怒，否认现实，接着，绝望消沉，最后，不是死亡，就是康复。。
过程非常痛苦，自信自尊都沉沦到地狱，亲友口头上的支持再也起不了作用，水深火热，孤身作战，每晚如万箭穿心。。当然，世界上是没有感同身受这一回事，针不刺在你身上，你不会知道那种痛。。“ 亦舒 摘
这句话形容的非常好，那种兹味只有自己才知道。。
我还搞不懂自己现在是在那一个步骤，但是可以了解到的是，失恋或失婚是最普便的事情，别人是不会去在乎的，你只能在一开始的时候在他们面前表露你伤心的样子，过几天后，你就得表现得很萧洒，不然的话人家就会开始看不起你。。这就是我此刻可以感受得到的心情。。
有时真的很讨也自己，心情时好时不好，有时觉得自己都好像放开了情伤，但又时又不断的想起和他在一起的画面，心里就会绞结在一起，好不难受。。有时在想，我到底做错了什么，我不断地说服自己去迁就他，包容他的优点和缺点，看他缺什么就送他什么。。如果上天知道这人不喜欢我，那就别让我爱上他然后又给我承受他不爱我的事实。。我爱的人不爱我。。真的真的很难受。。我一直都十分相信他对我说的每句话，所以从没去怀疑，但没想到他把我对他的信任当成是他说谎的
武器。。
如果说爱情是有循环和报应的，那我希望上天就可怜可怜我，就停止对我的折磨，让我好好的遇到一个对的人，然后幸富的走一辈子。。我会好好珍惜的。。
过程非常痛苦，自信自尊都沉沦到地狱，亲友口头上的支持再也起不了作用，水深火热，孤身作战，每晚如万箭穿心。。当然，世界上是没有感同身受这一回事，针不刺在你身上，你不会知道那种痛。。“ 亦舒 摘
这句话形容的非常好，那种兹味只有自己才知道。。
我还搞不懂自己现在是在那一个步骤，但是可以了解到的是，失恋或失婚是最普便的事情，别人是不会去在乎的，你只能在一开始的时候在他们面前表露你伤心的样子，过几天后，你就得表现得很萧洒，不然的话人家就会开始看不起你。。这就是我此刻可以感受得到的心情。。
有时真的很讨也自己，心情时好时不好，有时觉得自己都好像放开了情伤，但又时又不断的想起和他在一起的画面，心里就会绞结在一起，好不难受。。有时在想，我到底做错了什么，我不断地说服自己去迁就他，包容他的优点和缺点，看他缺什么就送他什么。。如果上天知道这人不喜欢我，那就别让我爱上他然后又给我承受他不爱我的事实。。我爱的人不爱我。。真的真的很难受。。我一直都十分相信他对我说的每句话，所以从没去怀疑，但没想到他把我对他的信任当成是他说谎的
武器。。
如果说爱情是有循环和报应的，那我希望上天就可怜可怜我，就停止对我的折磨，让我好好的遇到一个对的人，然后幸富的走一辈子。。我会好好珍惜的。。
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Experience.....
Since from last yr 21th feb, my ex broke up with me due to 3rd party,who is the 3rd party?yes,his ex..unacceptable,oh my god,its nt goin to happen,he treat me so well within this 4 yrs v been together...im feel like im princess during 2gether...no matter how much i bag him,but he ed change face (cruel) to me...he told me "if i bac to ur side,only my body with u,but nt my soul"...I really fed up..once a while think wan to end my life....but no finally...
During this period, i was really suffering,cry n cry, "xing shi zhou rou"...u noe wat is the feeling,god n me onli noe ...
After 2 mths,i went holiday with my collegues,n with his frens too, the day v travelling im really 'stim'...keep thinking my ex n my ex....no feeling, no thinking....suddenlly one of my collegue's fren treat me very well,keep take k me all the while....n ask me to allow him to hold my hand as reason I will lost...then i say ok ...finally v 2gether...
Ya,1st few mths when started,everthing seem very good...i start 'put down 'my ex..i taught im d lucky gal in d world,god let me find the better 1 after i get hurt by someone ...n im very regret coz i never treat my ex as good as i can las time...so i promise to myself, this time i really must cherish this guy....n i think if i treat ppl good, ppl sure will treat me d same way....i tolerate with him in everything,try to change my behavior n hot tempere , n try to put more effort on how to take k him, owez take him at 1st place, ...i will ask his opinion b4 doin sumthing,coz i k his feeling, i try to treat him as good as i can...Y??coz i scare ppl dumping me for another time...
At 1st,vr really hapi each other(my opinion). ard after 5 mths, he started to change...sumtimes cool,sumtimes sayang me..nvm..i tolerate with anything with him just bcoz i love him very much...no ppl is perfect to another person, everytime no matter who make wrong, im d 1 who start to call...is ok,fine...as i love him very much,i wan to treat him as good as i can..prepare b'fast to him,buy b'cuit for snack while working...lot n lot...n i found tat our 'sex' bcum less n less,fm 2 times a week,1 time a week, 1 time in 2 weeks, 1 time in 1 mth...finally when i ask,v onli do....Im not stupid gal,i ask whether u dun like me....he said i think too much...ok,so i listen to him coz i bliv him...n he giv me d reason as he very tired,sumtimes not convenience...i accepted...
Ya..valentine cuming,v go celebrate at genting...v r very happy during tat 2 days...he really very sayang me....i think he very luv me...im very 'xin fu'....
But after bac fm genting, he started to change, whenever he came to my hs,owez tell me he very tired, sound like wan to bac home earlier..so i ask him to bac hm earlier to rest...but following 4 days,he oso tell me tat he very tired...n very quite when facing me...i start feeling sumthing,sumthing will happen...ya...i noe tat...n i expect tat....
Its true,im rite, he msg me in the 5th day,21th feb (another yr),same day with las yr, in his msg 'seriously i wan to tell u for long time,can v b fren bac,im very sori'..when i read the msg,my heart beated 'pik pok pik pok'...both my pump feel very cool...i call him after receive d msg...'ur phone hav been forwarded to the automatic system'...huh...he off d phone in order to run away fm me..i drive to his hs,i saw him drive car out fm his hs,n drive very fast..i follow his bac....act i just 12 noe the reason,i nvr expect anythin...just 12 to noe the reason...finally he stop d car...n i ask him y...he told me act his parents dun like me when starting till now,but he nvr told me...n he really listen to his parents,dun wan to argue his parents opinion...besides,he can try all d way to treat his ex very well...but cant to me....wat is my answer???i just tell him' u should tell me earlier n ok'....then he said he so sori to me n he go out fm my car....ya....end the relationship in just 5 min....hahaha....
God really play me alot......they nvr wan me to live hapily....they like to hurt me again n again...
My heart really die this time....who else i can beliv n expected more fm him....no...no more....this is d las las time....single life...welcome to my life....
During this period, i was really suffering,cry n cry, "xing shi zhou rou"...u noe wat is the feeling,god n me onli noe ...
After 2 mths,i went holiday with my collegues,n with his frens too, the day v travelling im really 'stim'...keep thinking my ex n my ex....no feeling, no thinking....suddenlly one of my collegue's fren treat me very well,keep take k me all the while....n ask me to allow him to hold my hand as reason I will lost...then i say ok ...finally v 2gether...
Ya,1st few mths when started,everthing seem very good...i start 'put down 'my ex..i taught im d lucky gal in d world,god let me find the better 1 after i get hurt by someone ...n im very regret coz i never treat my ex as good as i can las time...so i promise to myself, this time i really must cherish this guy....n i think if i treat ppl good, ppl sure will treat me d same way....i tolerate with him in everything,try to change my behavior n hot tempere , n try to put more effort on how to take k him, owez take him at 1st place, ...i will ask his opinion b4 doin sumthing,coz i k his feeling, i try to treat him as good as i can...Y??coz i scare ppl dumping me for another time...
At 1st,vr really hapi each other(my opinion). ard after 5 mths, he started to change...sumtimes cool,sumtimes sayang me..nvm..i tolerate with anything with him just bcoz i love him very much...no ppl is perfect to another person, everytime no matter who make wrong, im d 1 who start to call...is ok,fine...as i love him very much,i wan to treat him as good as i can..prepare b'fast to him,buy b'cuit for snack while working...lot n lot...n i found tat our 'sex' bcum less n less,fm 2 times a week,1 time a week, 1 time in 2 weeks, 1 time in 1 mth...finally when i ask,v onli do....Im not stupid gal,i ask whether u dun like me....he said i think too much...ok,so i listen to him coz i bliv him...n he giv me d reason as he very tired,sumtimes not convenience...i accepted...
Ya..valentine cuming,v go celebrate at genting...v r very happy during tat 2 days...he really very sayang me....i think he very luv me...im very 'xin fu'....
But after bac fm genting, he started to change, whenever he came to my hs,owez tell me he very tired, sound like wan to bac home earlier..so i ask him to bac hm earlier to rest...but following 4 days,he oso tell me tat he very tired...n very quite when facing me...i start feeling sumthing,sumthing will happen...ya...i noe tat...n i expect tat....
Its true,im rite, he msg me in the 5th day,21th feb (another yr),same day with las yr, in his msg 'seriously i wan to tell u for long time,can v b fren bac,im very sori'..when i read the msg,my heart beated 'pik pok pik pok'...both my pump feel very cool...i call him after receive d msg...'ur phone hav been forwarded to the automatic system'...huh...he off d phone in order to run away fm me..i drive to his hs,i saw him drive car out fm his hs,n drive very fast..i follow his bac....act i just 12 noe the reason,i nvr expect anythin...just 12 to noe the reason...finally he stop d car...n i ask him y...he told me act his parents dun like me when starting till now,but he nvr told me...n he really listen to his parents,dun wan to argue his parents opinion...besides,he can try all d way to treat his ex very well...but cant to me....wat is my answer???i just tell him' u should tell me earlier n ok'....then he said he so sori to me n he go out fm my car....ya....end the relationship in just 5 min....hahaha....
God really play me alot......they nvr wan me to live hapily....they like to hurt me again n again...
My heart really die this time....who else i can beliv n expected more fm him....no...no more....this is d las las time....single life...welcome to my life....
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